J_E_G.....From the land of OZ

Saturday, February 28, 2004

 

Not much really to post right now. Spent most of my time so far this weekend at my brothers house. Tomorrow I'm heading to Topeka to attend a surprise birthday party for my sister. Maybe there'll be a story or two to tell after that. Hopefully I'll manage to get some good pic's while I'm out of town.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 11:27 PM   

Friday, February 27, 2004

 

Got home last night about seven thirty and had planned to check my e-mail and then post an update here. But at some point I must have leaned back in my chair and closed my eyes because the next thing I know my eyes are popping open and it's one thirty in the morning. I knew I'd been feeling tired not only physically but mentally as well and I guess it all finally caught up with me. So I turned off the computer and into bed I climbed. Must admit I feel a lot better more rested today.

Time now to start getting ready for work. It's friday, the weather's good and we're taking off at noon today, can't get any better then that. Well it could, but I'm gonna be happy with what we've got going now and not push it.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 5:10 AM   

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

 

Work is going good in the fact that it keeps me busy now. So much so that I am able to forget all that is going on with me at the moment allowing me a swift feeling that all is good again a feeling of well, happiness. A feeling I do my best to keep with me, for I know that ultimately the responsibility of my happiness and well being rests solely with me and no one else. It is I alone who must choose to let go of all the negative things looking to wreck havoc in my life. Something that is not always easy to do, but in my case I need to let it all go before the stress can turn to pressure which can then affect my health.









Without a word


i see her there


Without a word


I stand and stare


Without a word


she smiles so sweet


Without a word


it's her I yearn to meet


yet sadly


I know the love I feel


could never be returned


so


I turn and walk away


Without a word…..

Posted by J_E_G 5:32 AM   

Monday, February 23, 2004

 

Proof that even though all around you may seem screwed up and confusing(which it still is), the sun does still rise the next day.
Later.

Posted by J_E_G 11:06 PM   

Sunday, February 22, 2004

 

I have restarted this post several times trying to figure out how to write about what's been going on. The last couple of days have been rough as I seem to be watching things around me explode, implode or disintegrate. It has nothing to do with my mom's situation, in fact she was released from the hospital friday afternoon. But rather a certain brother of mine has taken it upon himself for some reason to run me down and cast me out. Bad part is others appear to be going along with him. I've been very down these last couple of days, but I will not stay down. I lived out a lot of my earlier life being down and having little if any self-esteem, and I refuse to let anyone or anything put me in that state again. I know I must keep moving on, alone if necessary, but I will keep moving on.

I choose todays picture because it kind of reflects how I've been feeling lately. In it you see a vast amount of darkness hovering above the light. Question is, is the darkness about to swallow up the light or is the light strong enough to overcome the darkness. Only time will tell.
That's it for now. Later

Posted by J_E_G 7:46 AM   

Friday, February 20, 2004

 

Just a quick update, things are looking a whole lot better now. In fact mom could very well be discharged from the hospital today. I'll post more info on this tonight. Right now I better start getting ready for work if I want to get there on time. Oh yeah the bottom pic is of a freak snowstorm that moved through here on monday morning. Thank goodness it didn't last but twenty minutes since the flakes were the size of silver dollars. As it stands right now it has finally warmed up and all the snow is gone. All that's left now is the muddy mess left behind from all that melted snow.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 5:13 AM   

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

 

Just got back from the hospital a little while ago. I will say it appears as if the antibiotics are working. It will still be friday before they think about releasing mom from the hospital. Which is ok with me, I say make sure all this shit is cured once and for all before they let her go home. Maybe we can end this cycle of returning to the hospital like we've been doing. With my mind and energy concentrated on what is happening I really don't have much else to say right now. Posted two more pic's hope you like em.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 9:30 PM   

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

 

Saturday
Easy going somewhat relaxing day.

Sunday
Discover a leak in the PVC pipes of the main plumbing. Attempted with the help of my brother to fix leak only to discover we didn't have all we needed. Hardware store closed, can't finish till monday.

Monday
Get right supplies to fix leak. Fix leak, but it doesn't seal up completely. More work needed to be done still.
Discover Cox cable internet is offline. Call cable company, they can't fix it till Tuesday.

Tuesday
Receive call at work, pneumonia relapse, mom admitted to hospital again.
Internet fixed and up again.
Drop and lose forty dollars out of my pocket. Find the forty dollars laying on the floor of the car( the only good thing to happen in the last three days). Phew!!

If you can't tell yet, I'm having one hell of a good week so far. What started off as a fairly decent weekend, rapidly evolved into a very hectic one and is carrying on into the week. Life can be so grand at times. Ok time to go and get my supper out of the microwave before it gets so late I'll have to call it breakfast.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 9:53 PM   

Saturday, February 14, 2004

 

It's just another day. It's just another day. It's just another day. This is the tactic I used to get past friday the 13th without any problems. So too I'm hoping it works to get me past this holiday that has little meaning to me nowadays. Fact is this holiday has held little or no meaning for me for a few years now. Not that it hasn't before. It's not that I want to live my life out alone. But for some reason I seem to be cursed when it comes to finding and meeting that certain "miss right" out there. There's always the possibility that I have become somewhat gun shy when it comes to relationships. I have had a few relationships most of which turned out anyway but good. My latest being a good example, wherein five years were spent living within the confines of a whiskey bottle. But enough of this talk. I don't write this in search of any sympathy, this is something that I must and am dealing with. I am just thinking out loud on paper.

So let's sweep the depressing part of this post aside. What I really and truly want to do today is to wish each and every one of you to whom this holiday holds meaning a VERY HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!! Go out and make the most of this day and enjoy.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 7:52 AM   

Thursday, February 12, 2004

 

I was sitting here watching some tv when it dawned on me, today is the 12th thursday the 12th. Which of course means tomorrow is friday the 13th. Anybody superstitious?? I'm not really, at least I don't think so, but excuse me a second while I make sure the horseshoe is adjusted properly. Ok just kidding. What I'm wondering is why friday the 13th. Why not monday or tuesday and so on...why friday? After-all it would seem the superstitiousness revolves around the number 13 anyway. Any ideas??
That's it for now. I'm off to find that four leaf clover, sure hope it's still in that desk drawer where I put it. Haha. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 8:48 PM   

Wednesday, February 11, 2004

 

We are involved in a war, something not many of us can forget even if we wanted to. The news media sees to that. However living next to a large army base which has provided a vast amount of soldiers fighting over in Iraq, the reminders come in as harsh realities every-time another soldier that was assigned to this post is killed. Thankfully no one I have know personally has been killed over there. But still it hits ya close to home. Also working on the base right next to where these soldiers lived and worked, the signs are even more noticeable, as you can tell from the flag in the picture above flying at half staff. Near as my co-workers and myself can tell the flag is dropped to half staff each time a Ft. Riley soldier is killed or wounded. Sadly, a sight we've seen all to often.

To date I believe there have been twenty six killed and over one hundred plus wounded. Granted these numbers are far less then were lost in Desert storm and nowhere near the amount of life lost in the Viet Nam conflict. But to the families, friends and citizens of the country involved one life lost is way to many. But as we all know casualties are a sad reality of war.

So yeah even though we might escape the harsh realities of war around us for a short while, it will eventually come crashing back down on us again. Especially for those people living in the cities and towns surrounding military bases.

On a different yet no less sad note Seduced wrote a very moving and touching post involving the abduction and killing of Carlie Brucia. It is well worth going to his site and reading.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 7:18 PM   

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

 

Spring will soon be here, with it's abundant fields of flowers and singing birds filling the sky. And if you're like me you can hardly wait. But lately I have been noticing signs of the impending change of seasons. Subtle though they may be signs non the less. One such sign is the lengthening of the daytime. Over the past few days I have noticed the sun coming up earlier and hanging in the horizon just a little bit longer with each passing day. Not much of a sign I know, but still, it shows spring is on the way.

Our little cold snap appears to be showing signs of finally breaking. Today it got up to thirty eight degrees and believe it or not it felt pretty damned good. You know it's been cold when at thirty eight degrees you almost feel as though you could shed your coat. At any rate along with the good day weather wise it proved to be a good day over all for me. Life is good , at least at this moment. Now to roll with the flow and keep it this way.
That's it for now. Later.

P.S. No those aren't pictures I took. It's still a little early for such pic's around here. But hopefully it won't be to much longer before images of this type will be around for for me to snap pic's of.
Later.

Posted by J_E_G 7:32 PM   

Monday, February 09, 2004

 

SOOOO MANY THINGS, so little time.

There are the things I want to do, the things I need to do and the things I like to do.

I am an early morning person, or is it that I am a day person. No wait I believe it could be I'm a night person. What's that you say, make up my mind. Well it's hard for me because I think I'm a little of each. Truth be known if I could ( and I've been known to try) I'd be what one might call a twenty-four hour person. There is something about each part of the entire day that I like. There is nothing like the solitude of the early morning hours, the time when all else is at rest and you feel you have the power to be and do as you wish with no one or nothing to get in your way. Then there's the daytime when everything is full of life rejuvenated when work is done, games are played and plans are carried out to their end. And there really is no need for me to explain the night life, the fun to be had and shared. The intermingling that can lead to many an hour of delight with one or more.....or simply end with an I don't give a f--k.

Why is it I feel this way? Simple really, there is so much I feel I want to do or even need to do that I usually hate to give up on the day. I want and sometimes need my quiet time the early morning hours offer me. The daytime hours provide the opportunity to work so that bills may be paid. And the night-time is a time I've yet to master, I know not yet how to really let go and have fun. Though i do try. That is not to say I can't fill the night-time hours with plenty I want to do. In fact there's always so much I never feel I can get it accomplished. But I try, even at the sacrifice of sleep. I have never been one to sleep much, I've never found a purpose for it. There's so much that could be done if not for laying in bed asleep. Ok ok, I know there is a reason for sleep, the need to re-energize ourselves. I know this, I just have a hard time accepting it. Sometimes I will go ( and I know this might be seen as a problem) with as little of sleep as is possible, usually about three and a half to fours hours a night. But I can only do this for so long before my body will rebel, reminding me I am human after all, and will not let me go on till I've given it some decent rest. However after that I start over again. Who knows, maybe one day I will catch up with myself and things will change.

I will leave you with this thought. And since I can't remember if I saw it somewhere else or thought of it myself, I won't take credit for it. Sleep is the most necessary waste of time known to mankind.
Later>

Posted by J_E_G 7:09 PM   

Sunday, February 08, 2004

 

HOLLLLLY SHIIIIT (((((THUD)))))
That was my reaction as I hit the floor after opening my $340.00 heat and electric utility bill yesterday. That's triple the $108 bill from last month, and the truly sad part is I didn't use any more gas and electric then I did last month. I tell you these utility companies have us by the balls and they know it, while the government just let's them keep on waltzing all over us. One of the main reasons I've stayed here as long as I have is or was the decent cost of living. And now that that appears to be disappearing, I'm beginning to wonder why in the hell I don't just move to somewhere with a slightly better climate. Humm something for me to think about.

This post is rather late because i just had to get in that last shot of football, the Pro Bowl. Not a bad game except my AFC guys kinda screwed it up and lost. Now I'm thinking I better get my ass to bed, it's late and four thirty comes around fast enough.
Later.

Posted by J_E_G 11:09 PM   

Friday, February 06, 2004

 

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Posted by J_E_G 9:35 PM   

Thursday, February 05, 2004

 

Between dealing with the snow both at home and at work these last four days has got me almost worn out. So tonights post is going to consist of a few random pic's of, what else...snow.

So now I'm off to try and work on my taxes since I finally got the last w-2 I've been waiting on. That is if I don't fall asleep first.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 8:01 PM   

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

 

I Can Dig It......

No really, I can dig it, have dug it and will more then likely continue to dig it. It being Snow. Monday I dug out my driveway from sunday's snow, yesterday I got to shovel sunday's snow off the sidewalks at work. This morning I got up thinking I was in the clear, but when I opened the door to warm up the car I discovered mother nature had deposited another two inches of snow over-night. So the shovel was back in my hand cleaning the driveway before I left for work. And guess what the first thing I had to do when I got to work? Yep, you're right, shoveling the sidewalks again. Enough for one day right, well I thought so too. That is until I got home from work this afternoon. Remember I left with a clean driveway this morning, and remember a couple of posts ago I mentioned the little present the snowplow leaves behind. You guessed it again, when I got home I found the entrance to my drive completely plowed in, as shown in the pic below. So one more time the shovel was in my hands.

Now I don't mean for this to be a bitching post, I really don't. I know it's winter and this is just one of the things that go along with the season. But then I must add, it's official, I am now tired of the snow and even more ready for spring then I was before. One more thing I might add before I close this post. As I sit here typing I can see out my window, and ahh yeah, it's snowing again. Arggh will this ever end??
That's it for now. Later

Posted by J_E_G 6:04 PM   

Tuesday, February 03, 2004

 

OH SHIIIT he cried, as he drove headlong into the pile of snow that appeared to pop up out of nowhere, although it was there all the while. After which he calmly climbed out of the car and stumbled into......

Posted by J_E_G 8:36 PM   

 

You know sometimes people can be so, so, let's see what's the word I'm looking for......primitive, no class or maybe just stupid. Pictured above is a statue entitled "Holier Than Thou" that's on outdoor display on the campus of a university in our capitol city. Well it seems a group of people are pushing to have it taken off display because they say it is offensive to them. This group of people are catholics. And since this is a statue of a catholic bishop they say it does not properly depict what a bishop should look like. They disapprove of the scowling look on his face. They also say that the hat looks like a phallic symbol and therefore makes the statue obscene.

I am a catholic( ok maybe not a practicing one, but a catholic non the less) and I really don't see what the big deal is. It has gotten so bad that several catholic high schools have refused to allow representatives of this college on their campuses to recruit students to attend their college. Now this is carrying it a bit far I think. I mean, wake up people and join the modern world. Come on it's just a piece of art-work. And like any other piece of art-work it is created from an image derived from the artist and subject to a multitude of individual interpretations. So I say take it for what it really is, a piece of art subject to interpretation by each viewer and was not put on display just to slam the catholic or any other religion. I say get over it and move on, there are more important things in this world to worry about then a statue that's making a face at you.
Later.

Posted by J_E_G 8:26 PM   

Monday, February 02, 2004

 

For any of you who might have wondered if that storm we were supposed to get hit us after all, well as you can tell from the pic...yep it did. It started snowing early yesterday morning and didn't quit until around seven o'clock this morning. And not until after it had dumped around ten inches of snow on us.

I got up earlier not sure if I was going to be able to make it in to work. I was sitting here deciding if I was going to try and drive on these roads to, when the decision was made for me by an announcement on the radio. It said that Ft. Riley, the place where I work, was closed down due to poor road conditions.

So anyway I waited till about ten this morning before going out to shovel the drive. Just as I was getting ready to go out I heard a loud noise coming up the street.





It was a grader clearing the snow off the road. Now anyone who has ever had to shovel a driveway knows what kind of gift such a machine leaves for you at the end of the drive. And this was no exception.






So I jumped in and started to shovel, which I might say was really fun.....NOT. After I was about half way through I heard this soft voice saying something. I looked up and there stood the fourteen year old girl who lives across the street offering to help me shovel. Kinda surprised I told her if she really wanted to I'd appreciate it. After the shoveling was done I offered to pay her and she refused to take anything. Sure helped to restore my faith in the younger generation.





Well after about an hour of shoveling the job was done. I swear just a little bit more and I would have had my own little ski slope on the side of the driveway. Now I'm just going to kick back this afternoon, oh and let these knots work their way out of my back.
That's it for now. Later.

Posted by J_E_G 1:36 PM